This probably won't be the 2x4 you were looking for from me...
When I read that, for a couple minutes, I felt all of that pain in you coming out. I felt the fear that you have, and I HATED that when I went through it.
It brought up some old memories within me, and I would assume it will do the same to every person that reads it.
I'm also having a hard time figuring you out. When you post to others, you have this confidence about you, and you always say something that makes me think, so I know you do the same with the poster you are trying to reach.
Yet when I read your thread, I see a different guy. A guy who is confused, and is really struggling hard to find peace with what has happened.
So where do you go from here ? What is it exactly that you are trying to get from that letter ???
When I read it, I see an exorbitant amount of guilt thrown out there....
Is that the way you want her to think about you when you ask for space ????
I see a very clingy, un-confident man, trying to talk his way out of something he acted his way into.
Is that who you want to be ???
I see a man, that is looking toward another person, for his answers...
Are those really the answers that you want ???
I read a man, that is trying to define himself, by what he wears on his left ring finger...
Is that what really defines you ???
I see a guy, who is trying to be a victim of what has happened to him, and not trying to embrace what the future could possibly bring, but living in what has happened , and taking a fatalistic view of his future...
Is your life really over now ???
I see a guy, who no matter how loud he screams that he wants this drama over, that also knows, this letter will create more, and possibly create a doubt in her mind, and force her to come to you for support, or better yet, open her eyes and make her see how big of a mistake she is making...
Is that really how you want her to communicate with you ???
I have seen you around Crimson's threads recently, and even pasting things on your thread, from his.
To simplify the theme that you have embraced the most... here...
When has your EX, ever really lost you ?
So why would she come looking for you, when she knows EXACTLY where you are ???
So i ask you this buddy...
Do you really want to send her that ???
Is that letter, the way you really want her to try again with you ???
At what point, will she finally lose you enough to look for you ???
