hello labug and betsey,
Thank you both for your input. Things have settled, still have those rushes, but I know they are normal. I just really miss being part of a team that is working toward a common goal, i.e. retiring, traveling the country, building a life together. Wondering if I will ever get my life back!

Will have to let time work its magic, no other way around than through it, thanks for the posts!

m 54
XW 48
m 12
t 14
bomb 6-11
s 10-11
wife moved to other state 10-21-11
d 9-12

O GOD THY SEA IS SO GREAT AND MY BOAT IS SO SMALL!