If it makes you feel any better, I've been D for 8 years now and I still periodically get those anger rushes too. They mostly happen when things are in the toilet for me and on the surface, it looks like the grass is greener where my XH is standing.
So sue us for feeling a little cheated out of this process? I'd say you're normal.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey