Husband has one foot out the door!

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H was distant again yesterday, (no surprise). I tried to say a couple of lighthearted comments, and he responds with one word answers. Then I went for a walk, and tried to be around him as little as possible. After the kids went to bed, H and I started watching one of our favourite tv shows on the couch together. He just kept 'sighing'. After a bunch of the 'sighs' I left to go upstairs to read a book, it is just too much to be around. For some reason I feel guilt when he acts that way, and I'm not sure why.

It physically takes a toll on myself to be around him when he is sighing, and looking so distant. Does anyone else find that? It brings my mood down, and I have to get away from him and do my own thing. I'm still in shock, 4 months later, over this whole ordeal, him saying he doesn't love me, doesn't care for me as he thinks he should, etc. I also feel he is only attracted to me after he has had a few beers. That is usually the only time he is affectionate with me.

I know I have to get over all of this resentment toward him, but it is hard!!!! I know he is not doing this to me on purpose, that he didn't choose for it to be this way, and it is hurting him to be hurting me. I know his head is in a fog right now. But I look at him and I always thought he would be there for me, no matter what. We had our 3 children together, and I never imagined for one second that he would walk away.