I was so proud of myself and felt so positive after our interactions on Sunday.
Now I'm just defeated and crying and wondering why I'm trying so hard to be with a man that obviously doesn't want to be with me.
I saw him briefly today. No comments about coming home or working this out. He seemed to be leaning the other way, actually. He made a comment about after the divorce is final and it knocked the wind out of my sails.
Who is this man and what has he done with my loving husband? Also he mentioned life being more complicated now than it used to be...I said you have the same wife, same kids...nothing has changed but his job (I think this is a big contributor to where we are). He said, yeah, and me (himself)... That just makes it sound so much more permanent and hopeless. Finding a new job would be an easy fix.
I need to finish reading DR. It's so hard with all the kids home for summer though. He has only taken them for one 5 hour visit since he moved out in April. I'm pulling my hair out single parenting while dealing with my own heartbreak.
