Living apart 6 weeks in

[Rockwallaby]

I am really kicking myself bacause I keep getting caught up with going back on the D documents, and I think she hates it but is lie a moth to the flame of throwing something out there to see if there is a reaction. I must not react anymore.

This evening I had a call, S7 decided he wanted to go cycling so she needed is helmet and cycling gear. I went home and met her to give her it. She said S7 had been out of sorts and she had banned him from ipad (she bought as a Disney Mum present and uses as a carrot and stick). I asked S7 what was up and he said he wanted to stay with me, we have a pretty strong bond and I have always done out of school stuff with him. I said to him mum wants to see you as well and gave him a hug.

WAS told me D4 was crying because no one made it to her sports day. I feel terrible I said it is hard to do equal care and still have time to work as well and missing sports days might be something we have to accept from time to time.

I can see WAS is so lost with this but I have to stay strong and disciplined in breaking the cycle, from today. I have a DB coaching session next week which I could have done with last week so I need to prepare for that.

In regards 180's I cannot find anything that works, there is too much damage, anger and emotion at the moment. It is over which is something I must accept.