tennis - thank goodness gone for a few. LISTEN - shielding your heart and feelings after alllll you've been thru is probably a v. good idea. if it comes out as not loving him - say it. it's better out than in i reckon. look atme saying hate sometimes- sometimes it is - it feels like it.
it's bigger than indiffeence (if there is such a ting) maybe it indicates we feellove and caring- the fact that it twists us up in such giant stinkin knots all the time.
so- worse case scenario- you're a cring person- and the fact that he put someone between you make syou want to top him- JUST LIKE ME being so insulted and furious that this h of mine put this stupid cow between us and linda has that stupid cow of a rt between them.
it's the biggest treason in the universe. you were his world and it felt mighty nice. that he began to feel whatever it was that toppled his confidence, ego- brain, whatever
that he grabbed the first biggest feel-good quick fix he could find- a big ole (big butt) silver bullet - just like my h, just like everyone's mate that finds themselves unhappy and like mwd says- blames the person closest. aftr all- you're the guy always there- it MUST BE your fault.
just like mh poor old crazy mom blames me for "hiding" her glasses, teeth, comb, radio, air conditioner, etc. when she can't find them because her memory is heading out the door and she doesn't want to admit fault of her own
they ARE taking the easiest and quickest way to feel good they found- at their fingertips. we're pissed and we're insulted and justifiably so-
you're human for cripes sake- not crazy. you're feeling what that dope created for you- it's a doozy-
gotta blow- hear car- you get my drift. don't question your own feelings - you're fine. he was, like my h, the best thing in your life and you found out it's a fraud (at least now) it hurts like hell-
it does not change who we are- we are WHO WE ARE - AND WE KNOW who that is-
do not let it doubt your wonderfulness - we all need to work on that and keep it constantly in mind.
i'm outta here- cloak & dagger me
xxoo hang on- you're fine really-
who wouldn't want to escape totally and imeedialtely?????i'm askin ya?????
