But what if after standing all these years, he never loves me again? What if I don't love him?
this is the thing - isn't it??? i always thought real love could endure anything. I have endured alot and yet - by my own definition i've got to "stand" a bit longer. i guess it's reaching the absolute outer limit of your tolerance - ORRRR some new love bashes you on the head and it's soooooo everything h isn't (now) it just washes you away. don't know which to hope for - which is "rite" or if there is a rite or wrong . their mlc kind of changed the rules & moved all the familiar landmarks.
i feel bad most of the time- but it's not over yet. I hope (and think) snodderly is probably rite and we will know without doubt - when we reach "the end".
I can't put his happiness above my own any more. i don't want to be in a r with him as anything other than what i was. h thinks we we can be "something". not me.
i figure the THING that keeps them from ending it and going their own way is love- they may never know it tho, or acknowledge it- so it may not do us a dawm bit of good - (just my gut feelin). could be crazy
so- i got nothin - and we're just 'stuck" being who we are- doin what we are- til we receive "wisdom" from the universe -
oh cripes - hope your day is a good one - or an okay one anyway. xxoo (( ))
