I am not pitying you Portia, but do feel so sorry that you have never felt more than second best, even in the beginning. My H doesn't love me now, but I know he did once (even if he thinks he didn't )
You're right, you need to be first with a life partner. You are a wonderful, thoughtful, caring, beautiful woman. A normal man would put you first. And will once you are putting yourself first.
Your're right Portia. Time to focus on wonderful you!
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