Mmy heart really goes out to you. It seems crazy to have these feelings for someone who has behaved as they have done and continue to do But we loved them for a long time, and they are the other parent of our much loved children
It isn't easy to 'move on' emotionally and you do not need to feel bad that you aren't able to. Honour your feelings. There are two main schools of thought one is that our feelings lag reality, the other is that we sense that actually they are not currently their true selves, and that this is an illness that we might want to try and wait out.
Anyway, sorry you feel that way but it is normal. It is only in the world of soap and beach novels apart from MLC!) that there is a sense of off with the old and on with the new
