I am finishing up a trip to the beach with my 4 Ds and will be brief. It would be difficult to imagine the planned Sunday talk with XW going so much differently than I expected. I'll fill in the details later when I have more time, but it didn't happen. The girls and I left first thing Monday morning for the beach, so now I'm going to squeeze it in before I take the girls to my parents out of state on Saturday.

One could say I wussed out, but that wasn't the case. The situation was very "hot stove"-ish. I don't know if she sensed something was up (very possible) and put up some preemptive defense (also possible), but I'll elaborate later.

What I do know is that the depression is back...almost at full steam now. My heart/mind/soul is...crushed right now. I know it's temporary. I know the truths of this situation and what I need to do. I'm just crushed. Bad thoughts. Bad emotions. Bad...everything.

*sigh*

Thanks for the vent.

-PM

M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.