TVS you are an incredibly strong woman, an amazingly dedicated wife and mother. You can do this dear. We will be here with you, to give you support, love, strength, virtual hugs.
I have such a strong feeling that this trip will be the demise of FT. And that when your H realizes his error, and realizes you have been the prize all along, that you will be able to reach deep down into your incredible soul and find the strength to forgive him. And love him.
