Thanks for stopping by, FY! Always good to hear from you
Well, H leaves in about 36 hours. I was feeling sad and even anxious today. Could feel that knot in the pit of my stomach.
I feel like there is a sort of finality in him going. Once this trip happens, it will always be a part of his life. If we have a future together, it will always be a part of our life.
H came up to bed this morning, kids were already starting to stir. Said he didn't get to sleep till around 3:00 am. He had bloody scratches all over him from him clawing at himself. He said the itching has been unbearable.
I'm sure the sun and sand and saltwater will be great on his already incredibly dry skin. Hope FT brings some lotion!
Somewhat distant today. Went through a texting fit at one point this evening. Got a suitcase out of the attic. I have to say, for someone who is going on a relaxing, romantic five day golf/beach vacation, he hasn't acted very excited about it. He doesn't say anything at all about it.
Because I like to get ahead of myself (as you know!) I am already dreading his return. Strange? I don't know how I'm supposed to look at him and not be sickened.
I thought today was actually a pretty good day overall. I had some more deck time this evening, and painted my nails while reading my Oprah magazine. Sometimes little things can be big in improving my PMA
When saying goodnight tonight, I told H I hoped he got some sleep tonight. He said thanks - he didn't know how many more nights he could take of this - that he felt like he was starting to lose his mind.
That's not good.
I can do it, I can get through this next week. I believe it's called letting him go with love
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
