Odga, So sorry to hear about OG... I KNOW how hard that was to hear, and I know that your wonderful thoughts about C may be somewhat replaced with not so great thoughts about OG... hang on to those good thoughts. Hang on to knowing that you were there for her when she needed you. Hang on to the wonderful times you two have had and are having together. Hang on to her talking to you about OG...
I think this is where my H is... trying to make the decision. And it leaves the LBS in a terrible place. If only we could have some affirmation... but you do have so much of that... she is SO confused. Hang in there and keep being the wonderful man you are being.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.