Quite a day... Had a surveyor here for 4 hours doing a buyers report. Makes moving much more of a reality!
Just got rid of him, checked my e-mails and had a message from my partner. Wanted to visit this evening to find out what the surveyor had to say. Not much, he was working for the buyer not us. However it didn't stop him calling. Odd, we hadn't seen each other for over a month, and he had to drive 20 mins in the opposite direction to where I think he is living now (although I have no real idea, no address or anything). He has spent 45 mins here, and has gone away with legal docs we have to complete - he will read them through and come back to fill them in with me another time!
I did good today. Kept it light and friendly. Very chatty (too chatty perhaps??) No R talk. Difficult one though - could see the old Partner (pre MLC)- this always makes me feel worse when he leaves, like I'm losing him again. When the crazy guy turns up I'm just pleased to see him go again.
I never wanted him to move out - it has been a gradual thing over several months. Until about 6 weeks ago (when we had the first offer on the house) he would stay here one night a week. Until Easter he had been staying here 2or 3 nights. It is much better for my anxiety levels when he is not here, also my PMA. But I do miss my old partner, especially when, like tonight, he peeps through the fog. I feel lonely again now he has gone. Will he ever come back? I guess that's the million dollar question on this forum. And if we knew the answer? I'm not sure it would be any easier - its a long roller coaster ride until we get there...
