Tried to get some quality time in with S last night. We went for ice cream and then ended up buying a new toy car for him. We had a lot of fun.
This morning I had to drop him off at xws place. The drive over he was asking me to bring our dog to mommy's house, too - said he really misses his dog. That stuff breaks my heart.
We did the exchange and I was upbeat and pleasant. She was kind of short because she was running late. *Sigh* I'm still so attracted to her - its hard to see her at times because it underscores the rejection. I think she is beautiful, still.
Not sure why, but today feels tougher than normal. Maybe it's just the natural peaks and valleys in this process hitting me today. I received a very business-like email from her today regarding his school this fall. It was so cold and clinical, not mean, but nothing friendly about it. They give me panic attacks sometimes.
