Thx Snodderly. Like I said I wasn't expecting Spew Sunday night and thought I handled it fairly well in the moment. It would typically escalate but I think she was taken back that I told her I wouldn't stand in her way of filing. She did say ok I just didn't want you to be surprised when you get papers etc..Or I didn't want to spring it on you.

Yes she is definitely even more detached now. Although she just txt'd me a picture of S getting haircut which she hasn't done this in 2 months. Odd as hell lol but nothing to read.

I do get anxious thinking about her cheating. Because it just seems like that is what mode she is in.

I do have trouble handling her secrecy and txting OM. Acting like she is single. It just blows my mind they think they can say "we are separated right now from this point forward". Like marriage is something you turn on and off like 2 Highschool kids breaking up every other day.

I try not to take her stuff personally. Her getting mad that I won't leave and she should stay at the house because she takes care of house everyday. Umm hello. I pay all the bills and maintain the exterior of home.

Snodderly she has been spewing for 3 years now. Just so you know this isn't a few months and im crying. We are going on year 3 of the same loop of spew.

I appeciate your kind support