thanks for asking. going okay- he's fixing this & that- being nice- still leaving tho. so wtf??? what is it all in aid of? i'm askin ya.
i just go with it- am trying not to think - talk - be me - etc.
poor dawn- i get her stress. this business of reining oneself in and acting like all serene, etc. it stinks. why the heck should i be fun or appealing to such a jerk? he's choice to wreck our r, life, sitch- so, that earns him wooing??? sometimes this db is soooo counterintuitive i want to explode.
i'm pretty calm at the moment tho- so not rabid. just kind of "cold" inside. if i even think he's nice- i remind myself i need to really get to hate hm. (most probably- i the end)
it evens me out.
it's true tho- for this moment in time i have given my ole little self (usually ms got-the-facts) permissing to not know a darn thing about it all, him, me, love, fture, etc. nothing at all.
i'm not even giving it all air time anymore. does nothing more than hurt my feelings and make me crazy. all my friends scratch their heds and preach like mad- i do not care.
if it all blows up and i've made a mess of it- idon't care. i'll deal with that mess when it pops up.
it's freeing kind of to let go of responsibility for smart actions, images, thoughts, etc.
