Anger is a normal emotion, what gets us in trouble is where we act from that place of anger. It's good that you recognize your anger and are thinking through it-it's bad when you feel anger, and the only thought is "That B$&#@ has to pay" and you smash something.
You've been wounded and you're hurting and it will go on for a while-I don't know, it may go on in little spasms for the rest of your life. I know I still have those moments of WTF?!?! Some wounds take a long time to heal. Perspective gained from distance both physical, emotional and chronological helps.
Have you thought of writing her a letter? Not to send but just to say everything you want to say. Put it away somewhere safe and then sometime in the future, and you'll know the right time, burn it. Memorialize your walk through fire.
Get through this part, things will get better.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
