Not sure why I feel so positive about the news that XH may be moving 1,000s of miles away.

But I do.

I think it might be because it finally constitutes some sort of change in what has become a traumatic form of limbo.

We keep seeing him all the time, but he is no longer the same person.
He hurts us almost every time we interact.

The thought of him just 'disappearing' is tantalising.

I suppose it might be another form of denial on my part... But it also makes it REAL.

I can't really imagine how I would have coped with this news a few months ago. I suspect it would have devastated me.

Strange how things change.

Maybe if he goes, I'll be sad.

But I figure if anything is going to change on his side, a serious period of 'life without us' has to be on the agenda.

Go. Try and start up a new life. Re-write history with people who don't know you. Leave all your family and friends behind.

Just you and OW. Start over.

See if it works. Find out what you want.

Now, of course, if he announces he's getting married, I'll take another dagger to the heart, I suppose.