Ugh. I just lost my temper. Usually I'm a pretty patient person, but I just lost it. All the stress this week, and my marital problems, led me to yelling at H, and scaring him away. Now I'm back to square one. I just have so much pent-up anger I don't know if I can control it. I'm still in IC, trying to deal with one problem at a time. I lost it when H went out again, and I guess my jealousy added to the situation. I have all these thoughts that he might be sleeping with someone else. I know I know. I need to get over it. Well this whole thing is still new to me, and the wounds still fresh. I just got DB in the mail and started reading it. I hope it will help. Please send me strength so I can get through this patiently. I'm so ashamed of how I've handled things.
