We're not saying you have to "break up" with your old friends, but it's almost impossible to change your ways if you don't change your environment.
IF you were a smoker trying to quit, you'd have to hang out with friends who did not smoke much, right?
well your family and friends have a negative world view. Does not make them incapable of love or joy but it great lessens it.
When a good thing happens, they expect it to end soon, or that a bad thing will come next, like the other shoe will drop. Their joy is tainted by fear or distrust.
But when they are hurt or angry b/c of a bad or painful event, their pain is total. 100%. Their anger is NOT mitigated by joy or mixed in with hope.
They feel the negatives in full force...which is sad and not healthy.
You need new tools and to be in a supportive environment you need new people in your life. Someone you can call on, be around and learn from.
I think you have already met some.
Reach out to them.
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