Swimming Upstream Against the Current

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Bea And Linda - I concur what you both have said to Portia. She is the prize, as we all are. (I mean look at what we are going through for our MLC'ers, really?!?)

Portia, in the same sentence of my H saying he wanted a divorce he also said that he might regret it one day.

They are confused, when I get too close to my H, I see just how confused and childlike his brain really is. Weird to reflect and say that, but I do.

But anyhoo, that doesn't make anything (ie our love, our anger, our pain, etc...) go away.

Portia, if you want to be done, be done. But I think you are in the mode that most of us are still...acting "as if" we are. I keep listening to the guidance from the vets that I will just know...hoping I get the "know" too.

But do "know" this...your XSO, is going to be so sorry one day, and you may never know it, but he will. This thought sometimes boost my own ego and PMA. I see it little by little how I am the prize over OW. In the beginning I dwelled on how much better she was, and now I see differently...

I have been working on boosting my own ego....I guess in a sense focusing on me. Put any decisions on the back burner and start focusing on you!!!

Hugs girlfriend!