Also I am not going to beat myself up over this. I handled the situation last night much better in the past. I didn't get all clingy etc. The only possible slip up I wasn't happy with was I stated after she said we havent talked in 2 months. I did say I wish things were back to where we were 4 months ago, kissing cuddling etc but there not. She said "I know YOU do." That was the only thing I wasn't happy with myself stating but that really wasn't that bad.
Mostly disappointed with myself this morning. I skipped early morning gym because my anxiety paralyzed me this morning. I spent 3 hours on the phone getting support instead of giving up control and putting in higher powers hands. Live and learn.
