Getting Back to Me

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Hanging in there! I had my wisdom teeth out last Friday so I've been on the pain med loopy train. But I am feeling much better and bouncing back.

UPDATE: I had a lot of down time recovering from my wisdom teeth so it was a task to keep my thoughts and emotions balanced just sitting around with nothing to do. My W is still out of town working and returns tonight very late. I am not sure how long she will "visit" but I am trying not to focus on it or develop any expectations. She has been checking on me via call and text since my surgery. All of our communication has been really nice but not without some effort on my part to restrain from R speak. I was prepared for the effects of the New Moon and Mercury Retrograde the past couple of days, so knowing that I would feel overly emotional, combative, and communication would be strained for everyone it was an exercise in self control to STFU!

My depression feels manageable. God works in wonderful ways. I needed some down time to rest emotionally and my oral surgery gave me the perfect chance to do that.

JOURNAL: My sisters are coming to visit next month. I am really excited about that. My younger sis will be here next Sat. and stay for a week. Then 3 days after she leaves my older sis will arrive and stay for over 2 weeks. This will be really good for me. They are my best friends and super supportive of me. They make me laugh and listen really well. I am very blessed to have them both.

I think that my W will stick around long enough to visit with my younger sis. They have always been very close. During this S and A revelation, my sisters have been amazingly centered. Both of them in my corner of course, but both of them have also reached out to my W to express their love for her and offer their support to her. She was blown away by this. I wasn't surprised at all. They are my sisters. I expected nothing less. However I don't think my W will stay through July 4th. I think she is in selfish mode and hanging out on the lake and boat, partying with her brother and friends is far more interesting to her than sitting on the beach with me, my sis, and my 12yr old nephew. Even though it's tradition and something the 4 of us have done every July 4th for the past 7 years. I also don't think she will be comfortable enough to stick around for the older sis visit. They are not as close as my W and younger sis so I think she will bounce out of here for sure before that arrival. I don't blame her. I would be scared to come face to face with my family for the first time since exposure too.

So, I will make the best of whatever time she is here and start looking forward to a wonderful visit with my sisters.