Oh hey GTO, just posted on your latest yep interesting weekend
"I am on a the same page as you... a break-up had to happen to give our M a chance. BUT, my H is still deeply "in love" w OW. SO, I don't know if there is still a chance AND I'm not so sure any more if I want to R."
You mentioned this^^, just curious what is your plan? Are you gonna wait it out until the EA end? I ask because all weekend long my mind is spinning about actually initiating filing for D. I can't help, but I kept thinking about the D process. The weekends together, well I'm actually dreading it nowadays. The awkwardness of it.
Yesterday I went to the movies with the big kids and I was genuinely happy. Today we all went to lunch and the mood was horrible. It's really getting worst that were together but don't get me wrong were not fighting were just cold and I worry about what my kids continue to see.
Anyway, I'm thinking about the D and even thinking of pulling the trigger in Aug. I need to talk to a couple more L's and mediator to get more info and second opinion. I met with one already he seems good but I have no measuring stick until I consult 1-2 more. We'll see I'll sit on these feelings for now and see how it pans out.
What about you, ever had these thoughts?
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
