This may be an odd sentiment, but on weeks like these I have no trouble detaching from H. My work and school have been so stressful and hectic this week that I've not thought about contacting him, nor did I have a desire to. H was away at his parents again this week, and I am becoming like I used to, obsessed with pleasing everyone at school and work. I always feel like I'm the dumb one in the room, with little contribution to the group, and I can see why it may appear I have a lack of desire to do anything. I am isolating myself from social events again as I did with my H. It's hard to be attentive to anything when you have piles of information to memorize, and a thesis to worry about. H complained often that I was wrapped in my own world of lab work and science, and paid our relationship very little attention. Although, and this is no excuse on my behalf, many of my labmates struggle in keeping up their own relationships because of the amount of time needed for applied sciences programs. I am horrible at balancing between the two, and I know I have to learn how to. I just don't know where to start... I wish there was a manual for these things.
