I am starting to understand and I mean really understand the saying I've seen written here so many times. "You didn't break her you can't fix her", once we really get that it's so much easier to start down forgiveness lane. I'm not being condescending or trying to act like she is sick, however I did not break her. This is something she must work out and I wish her the best. I must say that I was also broken and not happy and at some point may have become the WAS, she just beat me to the punch. The difference is I am trying to accept my role in our relationship and change. It is difficult facing my fears and demons yet necessary.
Another journey begins today, my D and I are going on a mission trip with church. In the past I would not have taken off to do this. I thought my job was to work and provide money so my family could do those types of things. It's my turn to experience life with my D before she's an adult and I'm excited... I feel like a kid at Christmas time. I know that sounds corny, but
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
