For over a year I've been wondering what this journey was all about. Why is it so painful? When will I know I have grown and am better because of what I've experienced? Today it happened. I am not done with my journey by any means, but after watching a video I had the realization that I am one of the lucky ones and so is everyone here. That might sound crazy. After all, we and our families have suffered terribly. But through our pain we came here, allowed ourselves to be vulnerable as we told our stories, including how we failed our marriages. Because of that we connected. To understand how profoundly I was affected I highly recommend Brene Brown on YouTube. Watch The Power of Vulnerability first, then Listening to Shame. They are amazing. I see my H's struggle so much clearer. I also see myself before and after BD. I'll be curious to read other reactions.