You would love my daisies. They continue to brighten up our home.
And yes, H's skin condition would be unbearable. But I'm pretty sure dermatologists don't recommend A's as a treatment!
My guess with the co-worker is that she suspects something is going on with H and (I'm stealing this from Raine ) frumpy twat. Not that I think this co-worker would say anything to me... But I'm sure she wonders just what the hell is going on.
Linda ~ no doubt that living a lie each and every day causes stress. Now that the newness and excitement has worn off, I think it is more work than he had planned.
Well, R are work. Reality check!
As far as I know, frumpy twat doesn't golf. But it also wouldn't surprise me if she did it to please him. Pathetic!
Have no idea what MIL or SIL really think. Will be able to get a better read on things once SIL comes in. If I had to guess, she will make a comment to H about it. It will be interesting to see how that goes!!!
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Well, he leaves a week from yesterday. Trying to put it out of my mind. These next two weeks are going to be tough.
Yesterday was actually terrific
I was a little worried because H didn't sleep well again the night before, even with his sleeping pill. He said he didn't get to bed till 3:00 am.
Was tired and groggy in the morning. A little impatient with the kids.
Once we got going though, everything was fine. I have to say, H seemed genuinely happy to be with the kids. Lots of smiling and laughing and joking around with them.
Still not sure how he felt about spending the day with me.
I had on my T^2 lab coat and goggles (safety first!) to try to step back and just observe. Here are a few observations:
~ It seemed like there was a lot "incidental" contact. Touching while standing in line for rides. Sitting next to each other at a picnic table during dinner (which meant some touching!). He even grazed my boob with his arm while tickling S5's face as we were standing in line for a ride - and believe me folks, they're not that big - that could have totally been avoided lol!
~ very little texts during a six hour time frame. I didn't think it was possible! I did see him take a few pics on his phone and text them - to who, I don't know.
~ he seemed confused at times, didn't want to make decisions. I had a BOGO coupon for admission into the park, and S3 was free. He kept asking me what to tell the person when we pulled up to pay. And he kept wanting me to lead where we went in the park (definitely 180 from old H).
~ even though he was obviously very tired, I was pleasantly surprised at his pleasantness and patience during the whole day.
~ has been texting a lot since yesterday evening.
It was really a great day. The boys had a blast, and so did I. No matter what, it will always be a happy family memory.
But I felt sad last night and today. Seeing my H be loving to the boys is so endearing to me. I don't know how I could never have these feelings of love and affection for him.
And it made me miss him. A lot.
The thought of our family breaking up is still so devastating to me. When I try to think of the reality of things that could happen, I just can't get past that.
But the thought of living the rest of my days this way, in limbo, is crushing too.
I think next two months are going to be interesting. There's H's "trip", our family vacation (still have to finalize), my spa retreat, and my big 4-0 at the end of August.
I think a lot can happen in two months.
Exactly what? It's anybody's guess
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
