Thank you, 25. I'm trying to internalize all of that though it is difficult through the haze of rejection. Funny you should mention texting. I was sitting in my office and the following popped up:
Her: I have heard from you regarding parenting schedule this weekend
Me: Hey! I need to kick off some house projects this weekend so just bring him by st the regular time on Sunday. Hope you guys are having fun ! I miss him so much!!
Her: And re: 4th of July?
Me: I'm going to keep him. I want to cook out in the back yard with him and go watch fireworks later. I've never been able to do that with him. I want to start focusing on experiences with him and I haven't done that much - it's my own fault.
Her (recieved before she got the reply ^^^^ above): I also have to work all of next week. I'll assume we will split the cost of the baby sitter unless you have a better option.
Me: No problem on the baby sitter, I'll pay for Mon/Tue (my custody days, FYI) just let me know how much. Sorry you have to have your summer interrupted with work!!
And that was it. No reply on my decision to keep him on the 4th and not let her have him for the 3rd year in a row. No reply to helping with baby sitting expense.
I know her pretty well. And I am fairly certain she is a little miffed I did let her have the 4th. Just a guess, though. But she did make a pretty solid pitch for it a few days ago and I usually give her what she wants in the name of trying to keep relations good.
! I miss him so much!!