My world got turned upside down

[RosaLinda]

"I think of all the emotional support and I love you's that JW is getting and my heart just aches. I knew H had checked out last fall and I kept thinking what am I doing wrong that H won't pay attention to me?? Now i know H was with JW. And then I start beating myself up because I am so desperate for any scraps H has left. And then when I see glimpses of the non-idiot, not stupid head version of H, I think okay I can do this."

oh Limbo, think about what you're saying here. Your H is a mess -- I doubt JW is getting much emotional support. And I love you is easy to say but difficult to live. I understand how you feel, images of my H ML to RT often plague me. But I try my best to block them out and think happy thought. You CAN do this. 

Are you doing anything fun this weekend? I am going to my first knitting club meeting this evening. I told my H that's where I'm going but I wonder if I was supposed to just leave without telling him. Do you know?