You know I never thought he would have gone with the OW KD, I thought that if H went it would of been with me or not at all. I now realize how naive I really am....
I haven't had to much to post about, although this week I finally feel as though I have turned a major corner.I think I'm beginning to accept what has happened and feel prepared to truly move forward.
H and OW aren't consuming my thoughts as they were, I'm focusing more on myself and my future. Truly looking at taking care of myself and not worrying about anyone else. I'm certainly not interested in "finding another man", that's not even entering my mind. The only man I would be interested in is still H.... but at the same time I'm letting him go...
H and I have virtually no contact, we have sent the odd text message which has had to do with family ect, he has dropped off mail to my letter box. I do so miss our talks and miss hearing his voice. I know that H and OW are just getting on with their relationship and I'm trying not to concern myself with that. Of course I still hope the "wheels" fall of at some stage!!
I leave next Saturday for my holiday, I've only just got myself motivated about it. Had been feeling a little flat, not really looking forward to it. But I am now!!
I'm off to the hairdressers this am, think I'll have a change in my look seeing as though this is the new me!..
If nothing else I feel a new sense of calmness within myself, but don't worry I know I'm still ridding the roller-coaster!!
M:47 H:46 T:8.5yrs SD:19 May/2012 ?? H having EA Dec/2010 H distant Jan/10/2013 Confirms PA with OW for 1 month March/24/2013 OW still in the pic M:Moved out May 4th
