Becoming PatientMan II - Still En-Route, Post-D

[jp787]

PM - I feel for you. I am at a very similar place as far as being frustrated and lost.

I know I need serious work on me and that I need to do it, not talk about it.

I know I need to let go of my rope and do my work.

I know...

I feel like if I let go, I will loose her. I can't keep going on like I am, yet I do.

To really find our way, to really fix ourselves we have to break the pattern, so that we can allow change.

Will our W forget us? No. Will they move on? That is the unknown, the fear that cripples us. I am starting to see it as an addiction for me. I mean how messed up is it that we can't can't live our life for us? Don't get me wrong PM, I am talking about me, maybe you too idk.

Boundaries. Those are difficult.

I am working with my therapist to create some that I need and how to work them so that they do not sound controlling or like ultimatums.

Dig Deep, you are just on a down part of the roller coaster. You have gone through a huge change and are bound to have extreme emotions.