Its been a while so I wanted to keep you folks up to date on my situation.
Tallula, you are correct I am a fully engaged father who dont live with his children. They are always in my thoughts and influence my actions.
I see my boys about 4 times a week for a few hours in the evening. I had a fear that they would forget about me but they are so happy when I show up and cry when I leave.
I have been giving her space by not calling or texting. I do see her 4 times a week by default due to the children so the LRT is a bit challenging. I do request that she keep me up to date with the children but I rarely hear from her. Except for when she needs money or diapers.
Its lonely at my apt with just me and my dog. I miss the laughter and chaos of the boys. Im working on GAL, but I am keeping busy with exercising with the dog and commuting 4 hours a week to see my kids. Still a roller coaster of emotions, not sure if that will ever change.
She is still cold and emotionless when I see her. I am always pleasant and helpful when present. I have given her what she asked for but I can see she is still not happy.
On Fathers day I picked up the boys and drove to the windmills to have a picnic and had a really fun day. I was disappointed that she never acknowledged me for father day, received a card or a gift from the boys. Just a text "what time are you picking up the boys" It hurt. Expectations I have to let go of I guess.
Wondering if I should reach out to her or just give it more time..
H 37 WAW 32 S 4 (Autistic) S 2 Together 11 years Married 6 Bombshell Dec 1 2012 House sold, flying solo June 1 2013.