Its tough; getting tougher

[amy1982]

I have to admit all our married years I have been too available. He use to ask 4 favors graciously but last nite he was in the shop & sent a text...Beer. I was shocked how demanding that felt. I def need 2 do 180 there but that's got 2 be one of the hardest for me..saying no 2 him or ignoring. I did take out his beer, 2 in fact, but did have presence of mind 2 shortly excuse myself 2 go back in whereas before DB I always hung around. (Quality touch is my primary LL) He asked me to stay..he wanted to talk R. Funny, I use to be the one that wanted 2, now I don't want to,& he does.
I think that he is surprised that I am happy, doing fun things, & don't get all tore up when he talks about separating, him not loving me, how he can't stand 2 be w/ me. I don't know but it feels like he expects 2 get the same hysterical results as 6-8 mo ago & when I keep acting "as if" he has to turn up the pressure.
It feels like he wants a good excuse to leave for GF.
wanna know the last time he had 2 chase me? When I was having A. And I realize I subconsciously wanted to see if he would. Yup, when he started bringing me java chillers & paying more attention, I was ready to quit. Tho' I remember crying & wondering if I was going to get dropped again after he had my attention.