It brought back all those old insecure feelings. I started obsessing about it and found myself searching his stuff at midnight. What followed was me spinning out of control. I became that psycho chick I thought I had laid to rest but there I was bringing up the past and obsessing.
I realized I am scared $HITLE$$ of getting hurt again.
In any relationship that we have, if we make ourselves vulnerable we run the risk of getting hurt. Without vulnerability we will not have intimacy with the other person. I have read a lot of strength in your posts and see just a blip on your radar screen. You've been through the roughest part and I expect for you to bounce back a lot quicker. Trust yourself you have put the work in and improved you, go back to that chiquitos, the one who has improved herself. You can do this you are strong.
What do you need to move yourself in a healthy positive way? Forget about the H and the kids in this one decision. Without a healthy chiquitos your children and your relationship with H will suffer.
(((((2q)))))
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
