Its tough; getting tougher

[amy1982]

O goodness, my H told me 2nite he's breaking under the weight of my affair 1 1/2 yr ago..that I am no longer exclusively his & he can never get that back. I understand yet I find it hard to believe its such an ultimate deal breaker when he's the guy that opened window blinds so his buddy could watch us have sex, he shared videos of our sexual experiences w/o my knowledge, he kissed in his EA & joked about them sealing their engagement, would sing, "loving two women is like a ball & chain", but he does not consider that he had an affair. Do I mention these things to him? He said he cant stand 2 be w/ me or touch me (obviously). But why did these intense feelings just show their head 7 mo about the same time his GF moved nextdoor?
It seemed he jst wanted to remind me how he felt about me. Is he trying to prepare me for something? He didn't seem interested in finding a solution. Why did he let it fester 4ever?
He began by asking me if Im happy. Maybe he noticed I am. He feels like I can go on my merry way & he's left to suffer.