I've been sitting with this. Not liking it at all. And why? I've been following her lead this last year. Now that she's made the final cut and is tiptoeing around, acting guilty that she's devastating me or afraid that she's angering me, I feel like it's up to me to reach out to normalize relations. Maybe I should just leave it at doing my best to normalize relations when she reaches out.
An EE friend asked if I had told P that I forgive her. I said that seems presumptuous or arrogant. She said I need to address her shame if I want to be able to move past this and be friends.
I lamented P's guilt to a mutual friend who laughed and said, "That's P's thing. Feeling guilty." I guess I can't fix that, but I can do my best not to feed it or participate in it.
