Questions without answers...will the hurt stop?

[albamarie]

Linda,

Thanks soo much for reminding me about my own quote! Reading this quote this morning made me laugh reminding me how much dribble comes out of my h's mouth.

so my heart cannot understand why he is lying, why he is so mean, why he is saying all these horrible things. They must be true.

But I don't think it's the words we read into the situation that hurt us, but rather that it's the expectation the words cause us to have. I'd say a good 75% of the pain I feel from my H's MLC is caused by my own expectations. It is so hard though, so so hard to have hope yet no expectations.

I could not have explained it any better myself. Excellent insight and articulation! This is the hardest part about all of this, the part that's keeps me in the anguishing pain.

I expect him to do every disgusting thing as well as every loving thing that comes out of his mouth and it kills me at times. My own thoughts kill me when I don't remember not to believe what comes out of his mouth.

One day, maybe I will lock the door, but for now he doesn't really have the key to anything more that a piece of wood with a little window in it.