BUT, if you are trying to come at it from that angle, your letting yourself down. The things you can control right now are about you and you only.
Things I did to start, was just visiting the local library, grab a book and sit down and read. Self help, hobby, cooking, and/or maybe just a plain novel. It didn't cost any money, and it got me out of the house. Sometimes just a walk around the block helped me vent a bit, if your really frustrated or having a bad day, use it like a race walk and burn some frustrations off. It will get easier, but you have to start somewhere.
Don't get frustrated that its not happening right now, allow yourself some time to ease into it. And pat yourself on the back for the days your doing something. Reward yourself. Baby steps for now. Everyday/time you think about him, turn into a way that your not let him gonna rule your life, today is for me type attitude.
Remember progression, not punishment. Its a slow process, but is slower and more painful if you don't take care of yourself first.
Good luck, you CAN do it!! (keep telling yourself)
