Here is the last thing I posted on that thread which is when I got advice to post on this forum:
Ok. My mind is spinning so I'm coming on here to get my thoughts out. Thank goodness we have an appointment with MC in the morning. Yesterday I started having a lot of anxiety about all of this stuff. Am I really doing the right thing? Can this really work? Can I really trust her again? Will she ever change? Does she make me a better person? And on and on and on. My head seems to be spinning since yesterday afternoon and it still is. Couple nights ago wife said she was depressed all of a sudden. I now know why. She looked at OM other girl FB profile and saw pictures of them together over the weekend. She said she talked to MC about this yesterday in her individual appointment. It is still bothering her and she is still getting over him. This is getting to me. Couple that with the fact that she doesn't want to have sex, which is making me feel unwanted, and I am losing patience. The fact that I know how much passion and sex was going on over the past several months and doesn't want to have sex with me hurts me. Not going to lie. This is so hard. I also just feel like she is just going through the motions with me, but when she is texting her horse people its all smiles and happiness. I am also begining to feel like I'm becoming my old self again and I do not like it. So when you put all of this together I feel like I'm making the wrong choice. I feel like my wife will never become what I'm looking for in a marriage. I feel like I should end things while we can still be good friends and great coparents. But then I feel like that's unfair to my son not to give it all we have to make it work. I am so confused with my emotions right now. Just wanted to get it all out here.
M 37 W 30 S 7 Together 10 years Married 9 years BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day) I moved to apartment 1/11/13 W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13 Peicing: 6/3/13 Reconciled: 7/2013 BD2: 4/20/16 still working on it
