I have tried to reflect on this before earlier on on what I thought led to the crisis. I couldn't see it before, but I now see exactly when this started with him...June 2010. Quite a few things happened in a 24 hour period one day and from there I can clearly see the path. Although not major things like death, but plenty of disappointments occurred and I remember H crying and mentioning that he was hurt because of all of it. Funny thing is, now that I know when, I am pretty sure I see the connection to H's childhood problems as well.
I missed so much stuff. All the little signs and hints that he was dissatisfied. And while I see all that, I see the changes that H would want from me, things he needed from me during the marriage. I can't give him those changes now. The changes he would want/need are really husband/wife relationship changes that I can never show him that I have made (or could improve on) without us having a connection again.
What an enlightening day...so much stuff makes so much sense.
BombOctober 2012- OW 11/28/12 -H still denies Separated 11/29/12 Own place 12/12/12 Confessed OW/EA/PA 2/2/13 Oct 2013 - I knew I was done Jan 2014 - Anticipating the rest of my life
