Thanks, Tryin2. That was as very helpful post for me. It basically described exactly what had been happening in my home for the last three months. There were moments, many of them I might add, where things were great - and then there would be these times where I could see a slow burn of anxiety in her taking shape and then it would eventually subside. I thought it was normal in the piecing process, and maybe it is - so I didn't think much of it. Well, too many of those "slow burn" anxiety sessions leveled against someone that is in a place where they are thinking and acting mostly on emotion add up. And in my situation, that resulted in the flight response.
So maybe this is my problem right now - I don't know exactly what to do right now. I thought about this on the drive this morning.
Do I just go dark 100%? I can see the logic in it, but at the same time I greatly fear that this would be read as me not getting what I want and taking my ball and going home. We DID make progress the last go 'round - I just don't know how to preserve or build upon it.....or if it's even possible to do so right now. Hence, I really don't know if vanishing into the shadows only to appear when there is stuff about S is the right approach.
Do I periodically reach out just to say hello or check in? I really DO miss and wonder about them both. I miss the friendship that we have. Our jokes, the sharing of the goings-on in our lives. Or is this pursuing?
I feel like right now I have to put my heart in a cage just to keep from reaching out. Is that the right thing to do?
