Gabby if you must know. I am choosing an option. I am choosing to continue to work on myself and then make a decision. Listen I have a lot at stake here. This is my life, my kids, I have 2 homes, business assets. Major life decision.
So let PON be honest. I HAVEN'T DONE MY WORK. Sure I went to EE and few ACOA meetings. Is that doing my work? No. Tomorrow morning I start to really really do my work. I meet at 6 am at his house to start step 1. I meet with a guy who was in my situation 20 years ago. He was a drunk and had 1 finger on the trigger in the gun in his mouth. He is happy now. I am not stating my W isn't broken. She is.
To me if I can truly TRULY start doing my work. Which tomorrow is a huge step. If I can fix myself I think after the process I will be in a better position to make a major life decision. Am I bummed it took me a 1 1/2 years to start this work. Yes, but I am excited to start the process no matter what happens in my M. I am still majorly broke. PERIOD.
As far as T posts go. I read his posts as mine. From what I read his W wasn't exactly open to talks. She SPEWED and he used the above tricks to not get baited and to just STFU and let her get it out. Most of the time when I talk to W I let myself get baited and didn't STFU enuff or walk away when she being crewl.
Gabby my sitch is quite different from yours. I value your input but this is complicated. As 25 always says to me there is NO easy decision.
Ive started to bring my fear down and it helps. As I continue to do my work that fear will continue to lower and I will be in a healthier spot to make a clear headed decision. Not an emotional one like I let myself get like yesterday or last week wanting a D.
