oh no- don't say it - desperate. listen- you will live thru this and survive it. know that. me too- however bleak it gets or seems and however at the end of the line we feel with some particular aspect- IT WILL PASS by sometime, someday.
breath- do not think- walk or something- anything to get your brain "off it". no kidding. get out of the house and go somewhere - any
try and not allow yourself this thought - think of the baby to come- think of smelling a new baby after a bath- think of the stupid cottage in england-
think of any stupid b ut pleasant thing you can rummage out of your brain- like digging out those pants that now fit from the attic- just do it-
no going down any dark dark holes with no escape holes. no kidding-
i get "the fog" - i get dark places and hopeless feeling-
BUT WE CANNOT ALLOW WONDERFUL SHINEY OLE US TO BE ALL covered in mud and unable to get "clean".
clean up- get the slim off yourself from this sitch- do not let it stick to you.
make a list of the good things about your life and YOU - most importantly. do you honestly in your heart think youare ratty and deserve this??? NO WAY- SOOOOOOO - don't let it drag you down any further rite now.
can go there another day( tell yourself-)
today- now - tell yourself rite now- stave off the desperation. somehow- for your kids if not for you.
i am so sorry you find yourself here- dig deep and contact your inner DAWNNESS - and let her drag you right back up to the light- swim upward toward the light and take a giant gulp of air- and , somehow, continue .....
go out to a mall and chat with people or something= anything-
i hope you're okay- now i'm really worried - and here i thought i gave it all up
hang on dearie- somehow someway we will get thru it all and laugh about this in five years (my matra) lets hope it is all true- and why not?????? i'm askin ya - why the heck not?
