Yes, I am holding onto hope. I think I will always have hope.
My XW is in a serious relationship now, one in which my 10 year old daughter does not like the guy and is causing real problems for my XW.
I just continue on, to work on myself, and to be as kind as I can with everyone, including my XW. The truth is my D has changed me for the good. I am trying to get to the point of truly just loving my XW as my children's mom and hoping she is happy no matter what. I am about 60% there.
My 8 year old son was upset 2 months ago when he found out about his mom's new boyfriend. He asked me, with tears streaming down his face; "daddy, why are we not enough for mommy to even try?"..... I just held him, told him I loved him, and said; "I don't have the answer to that and it would be better if he asked his mom".
My XW is extremely nice and caring towards me. So, I am happy about that but at the same time interactions with her leave me hurting. She and I get along so well, but I guess that is not enough for her.
Tomorrow is another day...
Me/W: 46/36 D7.6/S6 T/M: 7.5/6.5 Bomb 12/05/07 D final: 03/03/09