Oh dear HWA..as I was reading your post I was thinking ...maybe you need to speak with a counsellor to help with your emotional struggles. Then I got to the end. Sorry I wish things were better for you. It is tough when there is no communication at all. Its as though she has fallen off the planet. One day you had your W, then you didn't. I actually think death is easier. It's final. Sorry if that offends anyone. I've just always thought D is tougher to get through. Maybe...I've not experienced either. All I can offer you is my sincere hope that it gets better.
