Not confused...looking inward

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Thanks BF. I hear those words....feel hope. I want to feel hope, I just don't anymore. I don't know why either.

Just had a little bit of a bad moment with S14. I see he is so much like me emotionally...he punishes himself when things don't go "right". I just had to remind myself that he is a growing teenager. I was probably a little hard on him...just want him to communicate better with me. I told him as much but was very firm, and not loving enough. I caught on of this by the end and apologized. He really is a good kid.

I really don't know where to go from here. Was reading another thread and saw that a type of MLC'er is called a vanisher. Self explanatory. I think if we had no kids my H would be completely gone (not that he isn't already). Not sure if that is comforting or hurtful. Anyone every see this type of MLC'er come around and work things out with their spouses? I am not sure of the types or probabilities of reconciled relationships based on types matter, but am curious. Guess maybe some research to gain some insight might be in order. But a positive story, if someone has it might be helpful and hopeful to me.

So going to bed.