Thank you Raine, rH, UW, and FY for stopping by! I read all of your posts first thing this morning, but wanted to wait to update till I had some time this evening.
Last night was quite a night...
H left the house yesterday morning a little after 5:00 am. Heard nothing from him till he came home a little before 9:30 pm. There is one phrase to describe my H last night -
Drunk. Off. His. Ass.
I'm in the shower when I hear the garage door go up. I finish my shower and get dressed. Dried my hair. Still no H...
I go to bed and start reading a bit. Didn't hear any noises, so I begin to wonder if I imagined hearing the garage door.
He finally makes his way upstairs. Literally sways into the bedroom. He cannot even walk straight. He says hello, asks how I am, how my evening was. Then he says - I know you will all enjoy this - "You can probably tell I've had a few beers."
Ummm, yeah. Just a tad bit obvious.
He struggles to take his shorts off without falling over. Had a deep look of concentration when putting his pj pants on. I almost thought he wasn't going to make it.
So we chatted - I asked him how breakfast was. I threw out a comment about how I was surprised with him never sleeping that he wouldn't want to take the opportunity to sleep in while the house was totally quiet.
He gave me some song and dance about how he didn't care about getting up early if he was out at the golf course.
Ummm... All day and night??? Lol!
Long story short, he asked me to scratch his back and put lotion on him. He stayed and bed and fell asleep (or maybe it's more like passed out).
Now this is interesting... 1. There was no texting from the moment he got home till the morning. I did not here his phone get any texts. I believe he was with her during the day, golf in the evening. 2. He wakes up in the middle of the night with an itching fit. Now, he hasn't gone to bed with me since bomb. When he does come up to bed, it's in the middle of the night.
He was going crazy clawing at himself. Twisting his hands and fingers. Scratching incessantly at his feet.
He told me how this happens every night - that he hates it - that he knows its a part of his life that he has to deal with.
I helped him scratch and put on more lotion. He eventually fell back asleep.
So I couldn't help but think... Is OW ready to deal with this on vacation? The woman who cheated on her H while he had cancer? The woman that was "annoyed" after her H had knee surgery because he sat in a chair instead of helping her clean their living room?
Oh yeah. She's a REAL sweetheart.
Anyway...
H tired and not feeling well today (big surprise!). He said nothing about last night. Very itchy again today with his stomach bothering him. Fair amount of texting tonight, a bit distant though not unfriendly.
But nothing could stop moi from having a relaxing time at the spa! The facial and massage were just what the doctor ordered. Plus, I treated myself to a kid free meal afterwards. It was nice. Brought my book (reading "The Affair" that Raine and Snodderly said was good) and ate my food in peace and quiet
Going to bed now, I didn't get much sleep either last night.
Good night everyone
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
